“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love”
“If i will catch a glimpse of you again i know i will cry, because it still hurts. And it still hurts because i still love you.”
2 sentences that described what i felt almost a year ago.
For months, i had written poems, essays and composed songs that described what went wrong along our little love story. Right now i’ll tell a different story the one i never thought i’d write. But here it is.
If i see you right now there are 3 words i just want to tell you.
” THANK YOU”. I still remember the day you comforted me after i hadn’t pass the entrance exam of my chosen university, the way you wiped my tears telling me i’ll be alright. And all those things we shared, all the laughters and triumphs. For a while you gave me stregth to face each day.
Thank you for the little things you did. For the flower you brought and for extending your hand to finish my project in science.
Thank you for being “my shoulder to cry” during those times i’m down.
All of them are memories i treasured, bottled and kept in my heart.
“SORRY”. The month after our break up, there is not a night i hadn’t drenched my pillow with tears. Not a night that i wondered if you miss me or if you still care. Not a day, i hated you for leaving me and for letting go. Not an hour , i blamed you for the bruises in my heart. And not a minute passed that i cursed your name, wished i never met you.
For all those things i’m sorry. I realize along the way that it wasn’t your fault. We are both prisoners of love.Blaming you is my pride telling me it was all your fault.
I’m sorry because i had avoided you for fear of seeing you again. But now im releasing this untangled pains and hurtings in my heart. I want to set you free, free of all those thoughts of guilt. And il whisper in your ear :“choose to be happy, because il be happier for you”. “GOODBYE”. They say your favorite hello is your hardest goodbye. Indeed it is, there have been so many times in the past that i wondered if old flames can really be enkindled. I used to imagine us being together again. Seeing just one last chance before finally saying goodbye.
Clock ticks and yes the time has come. As i wave my goodbye to you i want to see your smile, knowing that our hearts are both settled in the hammock of peace. I want you to know that i never regretted knowing you for you gave me life learned lessons, made me a stronger individual and most of all strengthen my faith in God.
Goodbye to you and i wish you the best in life. Let’s say goodbye to all the aches and feelings of sadness that have trapped us for so long. Open our minds and hearts to the wonders of the universe.
Grasp the day with positivity and have a mindset that each day is a clean paper to scribble upon. Let us write history and get lost in finding our inspirations to bring us closer to ourselves.
Mother Teresa is right,
Today i just want to fill my heart with love. And embrace this freedom i feel within. ☺❤
My apologies for all the grammatical errors in this article. I’m striving to improve my writing throughout my blogging journey.Thank you for bearing with me.