I am Louisa Clark if you don’t believe me chances are, you already have watched or read Me Before You, or you know Louisa Clark is halfway across the globe,or maybe you know she doesn’t really exist. Either way, you can call me a fanatic of her character but just a little bit more.
Like Louisa I am a daisy in a bunch of roses.I am a rainbow in the midst of a storm. And a melody in between the silence. Growing up I always feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Like Louisa being asked what do you really want in your life? Only the sound of crickets could be heard as my reply. And it is disappointing, just like how Mrs. Trainor reacted after hearing nothing from Louisa.
Later on however, I realized that it’s okay to be unique. That it is okay to not figure things out instantly. That it is okay to have doubts. It is okay to have your own phase in your sojourn in life.
And most importantly I realized that it is nice to wonder for a while. After all not all who wonders are lost right? So I started to wonder on this three questions. What is it that your heart seeks? Who are the people you really care about? And how would you want your life to be years from now?
I didn’t see it coming but Louisa’s character taught me how to answer those questions. It’s the simple joy of everyday rambles that actually gives life its meaning. It’s the way I hump my back in riding the jeepney because of tiredness then I would smile because I saw a little girl with her dad.
My heart seeks the laughter of children that magically vanish weariness from their parent’s faces. My heart yearns lullabies of love when they felt alone. Because above all, doing that cures my heart. Louisa’s love for her family,to the point that she is willing to suspend her dreams for a while inspires me to keep going. She found love in the most mundane circumstance and that love transformed her into a strong individual.
At the end of the day, no matter how chaotic or harmonious I may find myself in. My heart settles for what it speaks louder. Be a pediatrician. Never give up.
I have few ideas how to get there and nothing is certain. Yet, I must be willing to accept the challenges along the way and to see them as choices not as options.
My first name means river in Spanish.While the second one comes from the bible, as what my father said. Being a girl has its perks. Though I secretly wish I was born a boy together with my brothers. Because growing up, who would be happy being their maid? Definitely not me.
I grow up in a small town where people know each others backyard like they know their name. And being born in November where my relatives would often come home for the All Soul’s Day didn’t help. Not because I don’t like the crowd but maybe because like Louisa I appreciate the thoughts in my mind when I am not saying them. Unspoken words are sweeter. And there is just a bit mystery when you are seeing things and not be one of those being looked at.
Years from now, I will create a new meaning not only for my name but for who I am as an individual.
As I traverse different paths in my life I only want 2 things: to maintain the sunshine in my outlook in life just like Louisa did and, to thank God always, for whatever I have right now, came from Him.
I am Louisa Clark not because I look like her but because I became a whole new person after I’ve seen love in the mirrors of her actions.
I am Louisa Clark because I am clumsy yet brave.
Old fashioned but fascinating and lastly I am Louisa Clark because I believe that the power of love can change you in ways you’ve never imagined.
And that is truly worth fangirling about isn’t?